Its been 2 years of struggle. I am still trying to handle myself. I am really trying.

All my friends have forgotten me and family has no clue what to do.

A person with a fast and fragile mind. What a combination.

In case you are struggling too.please know nobody is going to save you because they don’t want to. Common they have their life,their struggle why would they bother with yours.

They think you want help and they don’t have time for that but what if you only want some one to listen patiently to what you have to say. Believe me if they can’t even do that neither they are your friends nor they have any intention to save you.

Mental health .people talk about it all the time.how it is important.how you should acknowledge it and how they are there for you in case you need help but are they.noboday really wants to talk to a depressed person because they feel the kill their buzz.i know it because its happening to me.

How a friend who was always with you at the time of enjoyment or even in the time of sadness will leave you when you are depressed.

People always confuse sadness with depression.No guys you can be surrounded by happiness and still be depressed.

And in that time you only need a person who will listen.But do they.
You can say talk to your family but is talking to your family and talking to a friend is same.i don’t think so.

After going through this hollow feeling inside for several months now I have decided to pen it out. If nobody is there to talk me out of it may be i need to have a talk with myself.

Language according to me is a commodity given to us by our ancestors so that we can communicate with each other. So that we can know the feelings of others because the early men used to converse with the help of drawings as we see in Bhim bethka.

Few days back I saw a news that a writer staged a protest in front of a shop because the shop owner didn’t know her language which was also the local language of that area. According to the writer because the shop owner was earning and having buisness in that Area so he should know the local language. That was the reason she staged the protest.

I commented on the news what i understood that learning a new language is good but forcing someone to learn a language is not good.

I commented and then I logged out when I logged in again there was a fight going on in my comment’s response section

One person was adament that people from hindi belt go to other regions where they force others to learn hindi and never try to learn the local language.This was his main complain.

Now there were others also who were arguing that if you hate hindi then why do you watch bollywood movies and tv serials that are in hindi

Now what I observed from that discussion among people I am putting it here.

On my comment there were 11 likes and i checked who were they and what i found was actually very beautiful. Out of those 11 people one was from gujrat one was from assam one was from maharashtra and one was from tamilnadu rest were from the hindi speaking belt of our country. I was moved as how in news channels we always see people fighting over language, religion and we only see that side because its loud its catchy it gives TRP to the news channels but we never see that there are sensible people also who actually think from their mind and understand the situation.

Now coming on the comment section the person arguing that hindi speaking people dont want to learn other language was not completely wrong in saying that because it could have been his personal experience .the thing which was wrong with this argument was he was generalising it.

He was being adament that the have to learn local language.

We have to understand there is a big difference between have to and should.

Knowledge in any form can not be forced. Nobody can make anyone learn something if the person doesn’t want to learn.

Language is a way of communication thats it. It does not define you. Your deeds do.

I also observed that all the people fighting there were writing in English. Why??

Because it was convenient. They all knew English and it was easy to type.

For a moment it gave me a smirk to think how they all were fighting over 2 languages in a third language.

I was just thinking how scientific invention in history has been done by people having different mother tongue. We never say that we will not learn because newton was not speaking our language.

In this particular seen if the shop owner didn’t know the local language. It was non beneficial for his own shop. Local language always helps but learning that must always be his own choice and no protest and pressure should be put on him.

As for the writer if the shop owner was rude and was refusing to sell then police could have been contacted. Staging a protest and creating a fuss about him not knowing the local language was unnecessary.

And I really want to know whether the person staging the protest was really awriter.

As far as my knowledge goes every book gets translated to other languages if the writer is renowned because ofcourse people from different language areas know the writer and want to read the book.

So whats the point of the protest then.

So I started reading a new book. I am not very good with titles.they will mostly be straight forward.

So the book…Its about Mahabharat with Krishna’s perspective.

And you know what I liked most about the book. It does not show krishna as a god who just thinks and things happen. Ofcourse Krishna is god in this book too but people consider him god because he has achieved it.

I was loving the Meluha world now I am in Dwarika.

Oo by the way the book is Lakshagrih Krishna ki Aatmakatha..

I was very angry with my life. How come people who were with me in my college or my school are in better position than me even when I work my ass off.

But then I saw 2 posts back to back of two different girls I knew

One was having time of her life in different cities of this world. Exploring it. Having fun with her friends.

And the other was posting one year anniversary videos of his son who was adorable.

But the thing was both were happy in their own way.

May be Its all about perception then..

I have seen a tv series named Sherlock. There was this character named John watson. In the first episode itself his doctor suggests him to write a blog to let his feelings out. Now I am not in a position to check with a doc but i believe it can help somehow…

We all are going through very tough times. Now, may be nobody will read this but still I am writing because even this gives me a hope. I feel good after letting it all out even though nobody is going to read.

So I was saying We all are going through very tough times and a certain issue has been going around regarding opening of colleges and school.

So a few days back I was talking to friend who happens to be a training instructor in a village ITI.I was going on and on about how government is doing wrong. Opening schools right now is not good and it can affect the kids badly no parents will give their approval on this and then I asked her whether her institution is opening. She said yes. I asked how??didn’t you guys have to ask parents. She said we did and they all agreed to open it. I was surprised and judged the parents immediately. I thought what type of people are they. How can they send their kids to that place in this condition. I shared my thoughts with her and what she said changed my thought process on the ongoing situation as to how for some people Corona is secondary.They need money and food first then they will think about corona.

Now I tell you what she said..ITI is an institution in which after graduating you get job opportunities. Not very big ones but still there is a chance.Her ITI is in a village. The students there are from that village only. Due to the pandemic exams of Final year students were halted and they were not given general promotion due to which they did not gotten their degrees on time.They wanted jobs asap and for that they needed those degrees.For them degrees were more important than their health at that time.

This gave me a different outlook of the situation as how people with Internet access with sufficient amount of money have very different needs than people who are struggling to get basic necessities..

Hello…believe me when i thought i will write a blog i had many things to write about but now i have nothing..